A Lot To Think About

 As per usual so much has happened since my last post (which was February, if you're curious).

First off Covid, that sure changed a lot.  But I am not even going to go into it much because we all hear about it enough.  I will tell you that I work in health care and all this has really made me not want to work with the public anymore.  It has strained some relationships with family and strengthened others.  It has also destroyed my clear skin I worked so hard for last year, so that's fun.

I just had my first week off of the year at the end of July, which is crazy as usually I take time in April but that wasn't happening.  My grandfather passed away right before Covid got bad, like I went there on the weekend to say goodbye, got home Sunday and Monday he passed and that day restrictions started (only 2 visitors at the place he was at) and then everything everywhere was different.

Some other things happened that aren't my business to tell.

We've lost a lot of staff at work so the stress level is huge.  I'm trying to have a different perspective though as work was consuming my life.

My husband got back from work up North a little while ago.  He always come back with stories of things he's seen and how different places are from here and how much more affordable houses are.

Which is why we're here, at a cross roads.  He is fine to live where ever, it is now my decision if we are going to move off our rock, where we've both been born and raised.  I would miss the ocean.

I'm sitting here watching Gilmore Girls, as it always helps, making pro/con lists (like Rory).

Basically it involves me leaving everything behind for a house, my family, my job (which doesn't bother me that much, just bothers me that I have seniority and vacation built up).

So far my list is Everything Vs A House (with a dog).

To give you an example of what it's like here, my mother-in-law went for a walk the other day and saw a nice house for us, she thought to herself that she could help us out and give us money for it (keep in mind we have a large down payment saved up). Well she looked up the house to see how much it was. . . over a million dollars for just a regular family home.

My husband is frustrated.  I've seen him frustrated lots of times, but this is like built up and I can see he's just boiling and doesn't know what to do.

I know my family would come visit me, but I would miss out on just going over there for a visit, or seeing my niece and nephew grow up, my youngest brother picking on me like I'm the youngest.  I wouldn't get time off to come visit on holidays.  These are things that I am thinking about.

I have always loved the idea of moving somewhere where no one knows you and starting new.  You can almost become a new person.  It'd be an adventure.

I feel at this point if we're going to buy a house and move that I don't want to live on the island unless it's the location we want.

I just don't know what to do.

I've got lots of thinking drives with my favourite tunes ahead of me.

                                        

Sorry, my most recent photos are from our wedding, you're probably sick of seeing them...which is another thing, I hope to get back into my photography hobby.

My Wedding Day Makeup

I am finally getting around to this!
I was lucky on our wedding day, my sister-in-law did my makeup and hair and it was amazing.  She also planned our entire wedding. Amazing woman overall.

I had all the make up we used (minus the eyelashes), because I'm an addict and even bought a specific blush for the day.
I love blush.  I just bought two more.  One day, soon, I'll do a blush post.

Of course I did my skin care first:
Shiseido eye masks-these are a holy grail for me, especially before any event.
Make P:rem micro tension cream-I love this stuff but it's becoming harder for me to find ever since GlowRecipe stopped selling it, luckily I hoarded a few of them.
Shiseido eye cream
Biore Sunscreen- This sunscreen works amazing for my skin. It has a strong alcohol scent but it disappears pretty quick. I actually just bought 3 back ups of this the other day.

If I remember correctly I used three primers on the big day:
VDL Lumilayer primer- great for glowy glass skin
Tatcha Silk Canvas- Great for smoothing out my skin. I save this for special occasions. I love Tatcha products.
Tarte Timeless Smoothing Primer- I used this in my t-zone where my pores are most prominent just for some extra smoothness/filling
Becca Under-eye brightening correcter in light-medium- I have been buying this for years now and I've only gone through three or four jars of it. I hope they never stop making this.
Wet 'N Wild Mega Cushion Color Correcter in Peach- If you couldn't tell already, I love a bright under eye.  Not going to lie. . .I have about 6 back ups of this in fear that they'll discontinue it like L'ancome discontinued theirs.  I can't say enough good things about this.  Sometimes I will go without concealer and just wear this for the day with a bit of blush.

 Surprisingly I wore foundation but not concealer on the big day.  But funny story, the foundation we used I use every day as my concealer.
Laneige BB Cushion Hydra Radiance in Porcelain- This is my every day concealer, it's so natural and glowy, I love it.  If I need extra coverage I will add a dab of something on top, but that's rare as I just love how this looks.
Hourglass Ambient Lighting Powder in Diffused Light- I feel like this is just a list of my holy grails as I've repurchased this powder quite a few times as well.  It's not heavy, makes everything look blurred and it lasted from about 11am-2am the next day.  The foundation and this powder are a great combo for me.
For contour and blush we used Charlotte Tilbury.  The Filmstar Bronze & Glow in fair/medium was a spur of the moment purchase on my birthday a few years ago and has been a favorite ever since.  The bronzer is a perfect shade for my skin tone.  I bought the Cheek to Chic blush in Pillow Talk a few weeks before the day, I just couldn't say no to color.
Then for highlight I had to use my Dior Nude Luminizer 001, had to.  I love Dior.  I bought the luminizer a couple years ago during a Sephora sale as I had been eyeing it up for a long time.  When we did my trial run for makeup a gold-ish Maybelline highlight was used, which was pretty but gold didn't suit my skin tone and then I remembered that beautiful Dior one that I save for special occasions and it was a perfect fit.  I'll be honest, the shade 001 freaked me out a bit at first as it looks so gold online but it's actually a beautiful nude shade and great for my yellow undertone.

Another Dior product, the brow styler in universal dark brown.  I love how simple this pencil is, one cap, a great spoolie and the product just twists up.  This shade is perfect for me, absolutely perfect.  It's a bit pricey for what it is but it works so great. 
Fun fact, I've taken apart the pencil before and there is little product waste left in the little holder thing inside once you get to 'the end' of it.

The eye makeup.  We went with the palette that, oddly enough, screams romance to me: Urban Decay's Naked3 palette.  I feel like we neutral-pink for the look and the darker tones in the palette were less harsh than a black.
For inner corner highlight we used my all time favorite eye shadow, Stila's Kitten.
I've tried rewriting what I want to write about this eye shadow and I have no words. I love this to death and, in my eyes, no eye shadow will ever be better than it.  It is the most perfect creamy, nude, champagne color and the texture is like butter.

I'm pretty sure we used Ardell wispies.  I'm not going to link them as I'm not 100% sure they were the wispies or not.  For someone who never wears lashes, these were surprisingly comfortable for the 14 hours I wore them. 
Over top we put a little bit of Nars Climax mascara, just to blend everything together.  I tend to be more of a length than volume person when it comes to mascara and I find this does both very well.  I usually hate volume because it comes out so clumpy, but this is great for volume without the clumps.

For the lips I bought options as I wasn't sure what I wanted to wear, but in the end I went with a Buxom duo that came out for the holidays.  The Buxom Plumpline Lip Liner in Incognito is a great your lips but better nude shade for my lips and I love it to line the lips or wear over the entire lip.  On my wedding day I wore it as a lip liner and over top I wore the Full On Plumping Lip Polish in Dolly. It's such a great neutral, mauve color and I felt like you could only tell I had something on my lips because they were glossy.  I personally love a glossy look over a matte one, but I tend to have dry lips.


The perfume I wore was Maison Margiela Replica By the Fireplace.
It is my favorite scent ever, especially in Autumn, so it was perfect for our October wedding.
   
And that is everything! 
The whole day was more than I ever imagined it would be and looking back on it I wouldn't change a thing.

We did it

You guys, I got married.
For reals.
After almost 4 years of being engaged we did it.

JanayhWrightPhotography

Fifty Days

Today marks the fifty day mark until we get married.
Fifty days.

When the hell did that happen?
How has it been almost two months since we lost someone?

Yesterday I went and saw 'IT:Chapter Two', I cried.  Isn't that dumb? A scary movie and I cried.
First off I didn't even realize I was crying; I was upset by something that would seem so small to most but to me it was a big deal and next thing I knew my cheeks were wet.
That's how it's going to be now, crying and not realizing it, getting upset over things most people wouldn't.

Anyways.
I'm trying to figure out a way to include people in our wedding who can't be with us.  I would either like a row of empty chairs, an empty table, or a table with their pictures and a pumpkin lit up (did I mention it's an Autumn themed wedding?)
If anyone reads this and has a unique idea on how to include passed love ones in our wedding please post it in the comments, it would be greatly appreciated.
I think there's about five or six people that we wish could be there with us.  One is so fresh that it'll be tough.



---I'm publishing this late.....

You guys, I'm struggling