Why I Hate Hormonal Birth Control Pills

I did an experiment this month, with me as the guinea pig.

Four years ago I went off my birth control pills.
I had been on them for about a year and a half and hated every moment of it.

I remember going camping with my then boyfriend and being so unbelievably grumpy towards everyone we were with and I was just not a fun person to be around.  That was after being on the pill for a month.

Let's get back on track, early 2012 I went off of the pill.  I dropped a few pounds, started running again, and just felt happy.  I realized I was in an unhealthy relationship and found someone who made me happy.

That Summer I went back on the pill (can you hear me groaning in agony?).
I remember becoming super anxious and didn't know why, so I went to the doctor who put me on anti-depressants.  Yes, more medication.

After being on the anti-depressants for a month or two I weaned myself off of them because I didn't even feel anything anymore.  I didn't feel sad or happy, just neutral and didn't care about anything.

So from about August 2012 until December 2015 I was stuck being on the pill.

Last year my boyfriend was complaining about how I wasn't lovey anymore and started questioning if I even loved him anymore.  It was bad guys.
When I was home alone I would break down and just bawl my eyes out.

I remember one day in particular, where I woke up grumpy and pissed off boyfriend so he went to his parents house (can you blame him?) and I just stayed in bed all day, crying.

That evening we had a talk and I broke down and told him everything.
I begged to go off of the pill, it's not his choice but I still think we should be making that decision together.
I went off the pill.

Flash forward to now, well kind of. . .At the beginning of June of this year I decided that condoms weren't really cutting it as he was getting fed up with them. 

So, here I am finished my first pack of pills and I can already feel that I've changed and I am unhappy.
I've been crying, not sleeping properly, I am grumpy and irritable for no reason, boyfriend tries to hug me and show love and I shove him away. . .it's bad, bad, bad.

The pills I am currently on are Alesse, I've tried one other brand, Yaz, but well if you've done any research you'd know Yaz is no good.
Hormonal birth control is just not for me, but my doctors talk me out of other methods every time.

Let me know your thoughts in the comments below.
Thank you!

Rambles About Health & Fitness

This is kind of silly but it's real.
Lettuce, is nine dollars where I live.
No joke.

I've been trying to eat a lot healthier and not eating as much processed food lately.
I'm still getting over a cold but I've been making my lunches two days in advance because that's where I tend to fail.
My breakfasts are pretty much the same, either eggs and hashbrowns (I don't care how healthy I eat/should eat, I will never give up my hashbrowns) or oatmeal.
Dinner is usually a protein and a vegetable.
Lunch.
Can I be honest?
Of course I can, it's my blog.
I hate lunch.

I've always hated lunch.
I'm more of a snack person.

So I've been planning my lunches this week and hopefully will continue to do it.

I'm hoping to do a post at least once a week about health and fitness.  Maybe what I've been eating or how my work outs are going. . .you know, once I'm 100% over this damn cold.

I used to be in the best shape, I'd run about 4 times a week or work out on the elliptical machine, I'd lift weights and do yoga, but I've kind of slipped in the past 4 years.
I was not ripped, but I was toned and fit for me.  I need to get back to that.

Recently I've stopped taking birth control pills. 
I'm using other methods but I won't get into that.
Birth control pills made me crazy.
I think I went over this in a previous post, so I won't go into details.
But I had a break down, realized I needed to go off the pill again and I have never been happier than I am right now.

So mentally, I am happier.
Now I just need to get to that physical part.

I'm rambling, aren't I?
It's Friday.

Let's get back on track.
I'm trying really, really hard to eat healthier but cauliflower is over five dollars a head, lettuce is nine dollars and for two chicken breasts over ten dollars.
It's ridiculous!

Eating healthy is hard when you're having to fork out that much money for lettuce, which is basically water.

That's my whole rambling story about how I'm going to post some health and fitness things on the blog.

Having a glass of wine or two while blogging is fun, isn't it?