Health & Fitness Update (4)

Well, these updates are few and far between.
I feel quite possibly, the best I have felt in a long time.
I still have quite a ways to go fitness wise but I've been working out about 5 days a week for roughly 20 minutes, doing mostly weight training and just natural body resistance exercises.

I skipped the last two days but I am not feeling guilty about it as I was tired from a long work week and Friday night I just wanted to have fun.
I am eventually going to do a what I eat in a day post but for now I'll give you a quick look into my daily routine.

First, I have a notebook that I keep track of my food and workouts in, I find it helps me plan and be accountable.  Plus I like to see when I had a good day and it makes me just feel good.
I usually write in this at the end of the day but I always write my breakfast and lunch in for the next day as I usually have those meals already planned.

Breakfast- 3 eggs and smoothie (if we don't have smoothie stuff I will have oatmeal)
Snack- A big bottle of my homemade green juice (recipe coming soon) and maybe some fruit if I am still hungry
Lunch- usually a salad, Kind or Cliff bar, fruit (strawberries, pineapple, banana)
Dinner- Usually protein with a vegetable and rice
Snack- Sometimes I snack but lately I haven't been except for a couple pieces of dark chocolate

I usually work out around six thirty, after my dinner has digested and then after that just get chores done or relax.  It's a routine that is working out really well for me lately, just hopefully I can keep it up as it starts to get hotter here.

Have a great week!

What Do You Want To Be?

What do you want to be when you grow up?

I don't care how old you are, what do you want to be?

I want to be happy.

I Need a (positive) Change

Hello Reader,
I have a question for you.
How do you change your life, make it more exciting, just do anything different?

If you've read past posts, you'd know that I suffer from anxiety and it's only getting worse.
I have to go to the grocery store before 10am or else I panic.
I can't order pizza over the phone.
I absolutely hate waiting in line at the bank.
Answering any telephone call makes me nervous and I won't stop shaking for up to twenty minutes after.
I won't apply to any full time jobs at work as the interview process would almost kill me and therefore I'm stuck being a casual with no benefits.
Want to go shopping on my day off? Yeah right, I'll just use my computer for that.
If it's my "scheduled" day off from work I will still wake up all night in a panic and will stay up after 430am because I'm too anxious to go to sleep.

This makes it hard to try anything new, step out of my comfort zone, just spice up my life.
It's terrible and I'm letting it get the better of me.
I never used to be this bad until this year.

Any suggestions on something new I could do or that helps you with being anxious?

...Maybe I should try to order a pizza.

A Happy Me

Happy Sunday!

I've done something bad.
I logged onto Facebook.

You see, I avoid Facebook. It's a place that makes me feel bad about myself and what I've done with my life so far.
I have a good life, there are things I would like to happen that aren't happening at this current moment. There are places I would like to go to and Facebook makes me feel bad that I haven't gone to them yet.

I realize people have their bad days (sometimes on Facebook they let you know....a lot) but for the most part people show the happy moments of their lives on there.

I have seen quite a few weddings on Facebook (one that I was apart of and yes I did post those pictures), there have been incredible vacations and oh! most of those weddings are in other parts of the world. Babies have been born (not that I need a baby), houses bought etc

So here I am feeling bad about myself.
Why am I not married. Oh yeah, I'm not ready. I'm ready to be engaged, but not married.
Why am I not traveling to exotic places? Because I am cheap and I want a house too.
Why am I not fit like her? Because I'm working six days a week and it makes me far too tired to even think about exercising at the end of the day.

I've logged out of Facebook now and have come to do one of the things I love most, write.
Writing is relaxing and the sound of my fingers fluttering across the keyboard puts me at ease.

Simple things make me happy, I don't need a destination wedding (as nice as that would be).
I went to the store last week to buy nail polish, I was in such a good mood after that shopping trip...mind you I did end up buying 3 nail polishes.  But it's just little things.
Boyfriend getting excited that I made him a sammich? Priceless.
Curling my hair, using my fancy new epilator and my parents bringing home Fruity Pebbles...all these little things make me happy.

Just wait until the leaves start changing color, then you'll really see a happy me :)