Self Doubt

I just read a fantastic post by Jess Ann Kirby and it inspired me so much to write my own.

Her post was all about self doubt, and lately I've been (what I now realize) is major self doubt, on top of depression and anxiety...or maybe my self doubt is causing those things.
Another thing she mentioned was to stop comparing.  I compare via instagram, "why am I not doing that? I want to go there" etc
It's bad, bad for your mental health and bad for your relationships.

 
So while this isn't my favorite picture of me, I was happy.  My boyfriend had just done something that made me laugh.
What everyone else would see on social media would be this girl having the time of her life in Vegas.
A week before this I was crying all day, miserable, ready to quit my job and I was just done with everything.  That week before inspired our trip.  I was sad the whole weekend before and Monday I let it slip that I had been constantly crying and Boyfriend decided we had to do something fun on vacation.
So while that picture isn't a lie, it's not the whole story.

I have yet to figure out how to get over my self doubt as I just don't feel like I'm on the right career path.  That's up to me to work hard at getting to where I want to be.

Please Tell Me You Do This Too!

It's Friday night and I logon to Facebook.
There's lots of action going on in the group for my high school reunion, which is this year.
So I click on it and scroll, boring, boring boring. . .

Start clicking peoples faces who I don't ever remember seeing at school (and yes they're the ones planning it).
People have been busy.

Someone is a makeup artist (and is doing quite well), lots of people have kids, a lot of people have traveled and you know what? It makes me feel bad about my life, so I stop looking.

My life may not be how I pictured it, I honestly thought I would've have traveled a lot more by now.
But I am someone who has never wanted to borrow money or be in debt.  I've always had to earn my own, so here I am working hard hoping that one day I can travel to all the beautiful places I want to see (before I'm 50, I hope).

I need to make my self feel even better.

-I have won contests and traveled places, nothing exotic but at least it was free

-I have been to Comic Con

-I went on a road trip to California last year

-I had many fun, late nights out in my early 20s that I will never forget

-I am happily engaged to my soul mate before I am 30

-I went to Vegas when I turned 21

-I own my car

-I am debt free

-I have a good job

. . .Okay, I am feeling better.

I do that once in awhile, check in on how people are doing with their lives.
I really shouldn't.
It's just a snapshot of their lives they're posting.

Do you do this too?