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Showing posts with label movies. Show all posts
Showing posts with label movies. Show all posts

Sunday, November 18, 2018

Tom Was Right

I wasn't sure whether to title this as "Tom Was Right" or as "What If?" 
As in "what if I had gone to the movies?"

I feel like a broken record.
I am so grateful for that night back in July 2012.
So glad I was not connecting with, my then, boyfriend.
So eternally grateful to fate for having My Dude there the same night, his last night before he moved by the way.

Man oh man.
What would life be like?

I don't think I'd be at the job I'm at, I think I would still have the girlfriends in my life that I did at that time, not sure where I would be living, definitely don't think I would have the relationship I have now with another person.

SUBJECT CHANGE

How are you guys doing on the whole Christmas front?
I am loving the cheesy Hallmark movies, as usual.
I just put up some Christmas decor today because the mall was so festive and my Dad and I went and watched the new "Grinch" movie [I still prefer the Jim Carey one].
I'm just missing my guy.

He still hasn't had Thanksgiving, Halloween or his birthday...and he completely skipped my favorite time of year, Autumn.

It's weird.
I was shopping around by myself after the movie and it was just so, lonely isn't the word...it felt wrong.  This is stuff we normally do together.
Go get a fancy coffee to split, people watch, Christmas shop, he tells me what I don't need when I want to buy things for myself (I ended up buying myself some things because he wasn't here to say no).  It's tradition and it feels so wrong not having him here.

He put it perfectly the other day, he left when it was still Summer and now there's a Christmas tree in his hotel.

Like, what the fuck?  Time has gone by so fast but at the same time so slow as I feel like I am just waiting for him to be home safe and sound.


What do you guys do to pass the time while a loved one is away?

I have a bad past with this time of year so when I'm alone it's quite hard and involves lots of tears.
I do find crying very therapeutic, to a point.

So please, give me some advice or something to do whilst alone.

Sunday, September 23, 2018

I Hate Being Lonely

I like being alone but I hate being lonely.

I feel like this sums me up very well.

When I feel lonely, my world goes south.
Does that make sense?

This is worse on my days off.
My Love is away working right now, it's almost been two weeks and it never gets easier.

He mostly works at this time of year (my favorite time-Autumn). Last year he was gone for three weeks then home for four days and then gone another month.
Last year was hard.

I'm very grateful he got this job, as he loves it and he is respected more than some of his other jobs he has.  Overall, we're both happy.
It's these lonely moments that get me.
I know it must be hard for him as he's away from everything and everyone, his home.
But as my mental health has always been an issue, I find it especially hard.


Yesterday was a big feat for me, I was quite happy with myself.
I went out shopping, like fun shopping, by myself.
Since you don't know me, just to let you know this is big deal for me.
It's great if I do groceries by myself, I think I over came that last year though, but I still like to call my Mom to go with me on particularly anxious days.
I have not done fun shopping by myself in years.  I used to take the bus all the time in my early twenties, I don't know what happened.
I used to even go see movies by myself and some of those movies are my favorites because I was by myself when I saw them!

Anyways, I didn't come home for two and a half hours.
I hit up HomeSense first, seeing as it was the first day of Autumn, then Winners. . .then I decided not to push my luck and left the mall to get some groceries at Wal-Mart (On a freaking Saturday! Never again. It was so busy!!)
After that I checked out London Drugs for some cosmetic bits and then headed to my parent's house to check in with my brother.
I mean, it's not a crazy day, but it's a lot for me. And I didn't have one panic attack!

Tomorrow I might even try my luck at a movie.
Scratch that, there's no early matinees.
I really want to see 'Life Itself', it looks like a me movie.
But tomorrow 'The Resident' season 2 premieres, so I kinda wanna watch that instead.

Anyone else watching 'Maniac' on Netflix?
It's interesting, I found the first episode very slow.  I liked the second and third episode a lot.
I think I'm on the fourth...
I'm also watching 'Hilda' which is pretty relaxing and easy to watch.


By now I'm sure you've realized my best friend is Netflix.


[I just realized I need to update my 'about me' section, as I am no longer a "twenty year old something blogger".]

Saturday, January 23, 2016

Movies, Songs and Books

Movies, books and songs that provoke memories.
You know what I mean, I hope.

That one song comes on and it takes you back to that moment when you first heard it or you had a meaningful experience associated with it.

"Truly Madly Deeply" by Savage Garden.  I was ten and it was my first dance with a boy.

"The Killer" by Mobile.  I heard this on the radio when I was in Washington, I think I was nineteen, and I searched for it for months on the internet and couldn't find it.  Finally I heard it tv, I think, and downloaded it right away.  It was a song I listened to late at night and I just felt confident.  The band came to my town and I imagined myself being in the bar, confident, dancing to my song and owning the room.  In reality, I sat at a table and enjoyed the band from there.

"I Will Wait For You" by Mumford and Sons.  I just started dating my now fiancee then and this song had just come out at the time.  I listened to it on repeat for months and whenever I went on the ferry to see him.  So I just associate it with him.

"Running Up That Hill" by Placebo.  My eyes tear up when I hear this song.  I relate it to a very dark time in my life and it's just a hard song to listen to now, but I still have it on my ipod.

"Crystals" by Of Monsters and Men.  We listened to this song so much last Summer, especially during our road trip to California. 

"First Date" by Blink-182.  I loved Blink-182, still do, but this song reminds me of being a teenager.  I would listen to this song from a mixed cd, on my discman (yes, a discman) and imagine going on dates with the boys I had crushes on.  I was pretty boy crazy growing up, but never did anything about it.

"Shh" by Donora.  I was 22, obsessed with Donora and some other bands that sounded like them and I was just weird?  I would come home from my 5 hour shift at noon and go for a walk.  I'd stop by the convenience store and get a red slushy from the cute blonde boy who worked there (like I said boy obsessed) and then walk while listening to music.  And that's what I did most Sundays.  I was really confident at that time and my anxiety wasn't really present during those 6 months.


Movies.  I love movies so much it makes me want to cry.
I wanted to be apart of movies so badly and make people feel the things I felt watching them.  I did acting classes for quite awhile and did some castings but never got anything.  It just got too expensive to keep doing the classes that I loved so much.  Those classes really brought me out of my shell and showed me how to express myself again and that I didn't have to keep feelings bottled up inside.

"Whip It".  Yes, the roller derby movie.  That was the first movie I ever saw alone.  I remember it was a really sunny day, I wasn't working yet, my Dad was up North with my Grandfather who was dying and I just decided to take the bus and see a movie.
This movie is what sparked that confidence I was talking about earlier.  I saw this and felt, empowered?
It just made me feel good.
I felt confident because I saw a movie at the theater alone.
The movie just inspires confidence.  I even watched it today because I was feeling down and this movie just cheers me up.

"The Vow".  Another movie I saw alone.  It was Valentine's Day, I had just finished work and realized the boy I was seeing at the time would never take me to see and I just felt like getting lost at the movies that day.  So that's what I did.
It's not the best movie ever, it's kind of a sappy chick flick but I love it.  I can watch it over and over again.

"The Labyrinth".  My Grandma got us to watch this when I was a kid, I was really young...I'm thinking six or seven.  Loved it, always have, always will.  Plus I remember when I used to work at the grocery store with my fiancee and he asked if I had seen it, all I could think was "this boy knows what The Labyrinth is????? Must date."
It is such an odd movie but it kind of set a tone for a lot of the movies I'd like growing up.

"Poltergeist".  Another movie my Grandma got me to watch.  I was ten and I was so into this movie.  I had to watch all three.  I remember writing a story at school about the movie, my teacher must of thought I was a really strange kid.

I read, a lot.
But I can only come up with a couple books that have impacted me.

"Gingerbread", "Shrimp" and "Cupcake" by Rachel Cohn.  I absolutely adore her character Cyd Charisse and her badassery.  She is so confident and I've always admired her for that.  I picked "Gingerbread" up when I was thirteen and then I think I got "Cupcake" when I was nineteen or twenty.  I'm curious how she turned out as an adult and if she has a successful bakery like I imagine her to have.

"Violet on the Runway" by Melissa Walker.  I used to talk to Melissa Walker occasionally on her website, it was really neat.  I don't even remember how I found out about these books.  They're easy reads but I really enjoy them.  Violet, is just an average awkward girl but she gets discovered by a model scout and the story goes from there.  I used to always want to model and so I felt like I got a feel for how rough it can be through these books.


I hope you enjoyed this post, let me know what movies, songs or books have had an impact on your life! 















Thursday, August 20, 2015

What's On Television?

Hey Guys,

Enjoy this picture of a new cute puppy:

What is everyone watching on television nowadays? Or does everyone just watch Netflix?

I don't have cable, so I'm curious.

I might get cable when the Fall premiers begin...
Mostly for American Horror Story.

It seems like every show I like gets cancelled.
Last year I was really into "Witches of East End" but it didn't last long.

As for current tv I really enjoy watching "Chasing Life" and "Border Security" when I can.

Other than that, I live off of Netflix.

This Summer I've had marathons of "House" and "The Secret Life of the American Teenager".  I can always watch "Gilmore Girls" but I prefer watching it during Autumn the best along with "Gossip Girl".  I watched "Gossip Girl" back in the day and only make it to the third season, right now I'm on season 5 and am so excited to see the end!
But I did ruin it for myself and read spoilers...
My boyfriend and I also got into "Wet, Hot, American Summer:First Day of Camp". Pfffft!

As for movies?
"How to Train Your Dragon", "Shrek" and the random horror movies Netflix has have been favorites.

What are you watching or what are your Netflix picks?

Friday, May 15, 2015

Things To Be Excited For!

There are quite a few things coming/opening next month and I am getting so excited!!
Plus there are some things that come out this month/have already come out that I am excited for.

First off, last week Mumford and Sons released their third album, "Wilder Mind".  No more banjos, which made me a little sad, but I have found some songs I quite enjoy on it.
"Just Smoke", oh my gosh, when I first heard this my eyes starting watering and I couldn't stop smiling.  I haven't even listened to the words all the way through, this song just makes me happy and reminds me of Summertime.


Sephora opens here next month. Need I say more?

Of Monsters and Men releases a new album June 9th. I've been listening to "Crystals" nonstop, so I can't wait to hear more.

Jenny Han has the sequel to "To All the Boys I've Loved Before" coming out, called "P.S. I Still Love You".
I really enjoyed the first one and I can't wait for a light Summer read.  And that's supposed to be out May 26th!

A couple movies come out this month that I am dying to see.  This Friday, May 15th Pitch Perfect 2 is out.  I am ready to laugh.
Then May 22nd the remake Poltergeist arrives.  They're here.
I have loved this movie since I was a kid.  My Grandma always had us watching odd movies at a young age.  This won't live up to the original but I am anxious to see it!

Another book....actually a few.
Sarah Dessen's "Saint Anything".  I love Sarah Dessen.  Her website is actually what got me started into blogging, about six years ago.  I just love her books.  I could honestly go on and on.

If you read  Emily Schuman's blogs, CupcakesandCashmere then you would now she has a new book out, "Cupcakes and Cashmere At Home".  I love home related and entertaining things, so I pre-ordered this and it came this week!  So excited to delve in.

Along with that pre-order I also ordered Cassey's Ho's book, "Hot Body Year Round: The Pop Pilates Plan to Get Slim, Eat Clean and Live Happy.." 
Cassey Ho is a youtuber but I can't watch a video and workout. I've tried hooking youtube up to the tv and it's just not for me.  I end up writing down the exercises or printing them out (I used to do this for Tone It Up) and going from that. So I was so glad Cassey released a book along with Katrina and Karena from Tone It Up"Tone it Up:28 Days to Fierce, Fit and Fabulous".
I was an avid Tone It Up girl about 4 years ago when I worked out everyday, hardcore.
I'm excited because both these fitness books are about working out at home, which I prefer because I'm cheap, and just using the basics. I have a few weights, a yoga mat, medicine ball etc so this is perfect for me.  Time to get beach body ready!

Last thing I am excited for. . .
June 2nd, Florence and the Machine releases "How Big, How Blue, How Beautiful".
I love Florence.
Hands down the best concert I have ever gone to.
Her voice is so strong, so powerful.
I just remember jumping around in the grass at her concert in Vancouver in 2012.  That was just a great weekend overall.


I am sure I kind find more things to get excited about but I'll stop here for now.

What are upcoming things you exciting for?  Please share in the comments! Happy Friday:)

Monday, January 5, 2015

A Few Favorites

Good morning Lovelies!
I had intended for today's post to be my past to present (none) health and fitness journey, but the post ended up being way too long and I also felt like I went way out of my comfort zone.  So it will end up being a two maybe three part post, soon.

For today I will share some recent favorites with you!
This is not a beauty favorites today, but you can expect one of those soon. 
Today are some book and movie favorites.  If you can't find me scouring stores for new beauty products to try or reading blogs, you can find me curled up with a book or laying in bed watching a movie.

First off "Alice in Zombieland" by Gena Showalter.
Surprisingly Boyfriend was the one who got me into this series.  Christmas 2013 he bought me the first book and I was impressed.  An ass-kicking zombie slayer chick surrounded by hot boys? I'm in! But it's not all zombies throughout the trilogy. There is heart ache, love triangles and don't forget the bad guys (not just the zombies).  I'm on the last book now and I just can't put it down.

Another read I enjoyed last year was more light hearted.  "A Little Something Different" by Sandy HallA love story with different points of view, including a squirrel.  How could I not read it?  Definitely enjoyable and something to make you laugh when you're having a bad day.

I can only think of two movies I watched last year.  One being the fan favorite "Catching Fire" and I guess the other would be a fan favorite too, "The Lego Movie".
Total opposites.  I enjoyed "Catching Fire" much more than "The Hunger Games". I've read the books but the first movie just felt a lot slower and while still interesting, the second movie just did it for me. 

"Everything is awesome!"  Boyfriend and I just can't stop singing this song.  It makes us smile and the movie is just hilarious.  We're both Lego lovers (played with it today actually)  yet we had both never seen this movie until just a few days ago.
We've watched it twice.

I have 5 more books to read and quite a few movies I'd like to see, so expect another one of these at some point!

Enjoy your Monday, see ya on Hump Day!