Tom Was Right

I wasn't sure whether to title this as "Tom Was Right" or as "What If?" 
As in "what if I had gone to the movies?"

I feel like a broken record.
I am so grateful for that night back in July 2012.
So glad I was not connecting with, my then, boyfriend.
So eternally grateful to fate for having My Dude there the same night, his last night before he moved by the way.

Man oh man.
What would life be like?

I don't think I'd be at the job I'm at, I think I would still have the girlfriends in my life that I did at that time, not sure where I would be living, definitely don't think I would have the relationship I have now with another person.

SUBJECT CHANGE

How are you guys doing on the whole Christmas front?
I am loving the cheesy Hallmark movies, as usual.
I just put up some Christmas decor today because the mall was so festive and my Dad and I went and watched the new "Grinch" movie [I still prefer the Jim Carey one].
I'm just missing my guy.

He still hasn't had Thanksgiving, Halloween or his birthday...and he completely skipped my favorite time of year, Autumn.

It's weird.
I was shopping around by myself after the movie and it was just so, lonely isn't the word...it felt wrong.  This is stuff we normally do together.
Go get a fancy coffee to split, people watch, Christmas shop, he tells me what I don't need when I want to buy things for myself (I ended up buying myself some things because he wasn't here to say no).  It's tradition and it feels so wrong not having him here.

He put it perfectly the other day, he left when it was still Summer and now there's a Christmas tree in his hotel.

Like, what the fuck?  Time has gone by so fast but at the same time so slow as I feel like I am just waiting for him to be home safe and sound.


What do you guys do to pass the time while a loved one is away?

I have a bad past with this time of year so when I'm alone it's quite hard and involves lots of tears.
I do find crying very therapeutic, to a point.

So please, give me some advice or something to do whilst alone.

Life

Well, it's been awhile.
My Dude is still not home.
More shit has happened and I'm so incredibly hopeful he gets to come home soon and gets here safely.

Last time I posted a lot had gone down.
Now there's more.
My Grandma was in the hospital for, gosh, almost a week? That was scary, I cried at work which I never do.
Then last week my fiancee's Dad had a heart attack and when I heard that I completely lost it.
I was like that's it, no more please, no more bad.
Luckily he's doing alright and is just waiting to come home.

We did lose another person, another cool person.  He was like another Grandfather figure growing up, so while not blood he was still family.
That's four.
Four unique, generous people.

And you know?
All these people battling cancer or just aging are telling me that I should get out and do stuff, experience the world, don't waste time...it really just makes you want to quit your job and go do stuff.

I went and watched "Bohemian Rhapsody" last weekend, those guys did stuff.
I wish I was like that.
I wish I could be that bold.

But, I'm just sitting here, alone, crying and writing to no one.

I'm going to regret it one day.

I love my Dude, I would do anything for that guy.
I want a dog.
I would like a house.

But then what?
Do you know what I mean?

Thirty years old and I still feel so lost.

I feel like if my goal was to have a family then yes a house and dog seems like a viable option.
I like kids, I do, but do I want to have some of my own?
Sometimes I think yes, but a lot of the time I think no.

Fuck.
Sometimes I wish I was 60 and had all this shit figured out. 

Just Breathe

I'm not entirely sure what you would group this under, but I've been diagnosed (in the past) with general anxiety disorder and depression.
I was also put on meds for the two.

In general, I did not have a shitty day.
But with everything added up and me over thinking every fucking thing, I am in quite the state.

Currently, my eyes are swollen and red.
I have snot streaming from my nose, great picture, I know, and I can't stop crying.

Today it was just. . .
You know when you go to put that Jenga block on and you know it's going to fall?
Yeah, it's that kind of day.

So I was already on edge as I hardly slept last night, then there was just work drama...you know *insert eyebrow raise here*.

Then I found out my Great Aunt, who I really like and was closer to growing up got approved for a liver transplant, which is great but I like to wait until it's done for the celebratory dance.
And because it's my Grandpa's sister it just takes me back to his funeral 9 years ago.  I couldn't cry at his funeral, I had already dealt with it.
The night we got the phone call he had passed I had had a crying fit hours before and didn't know why and I couldn't sleep.
I found out the next morning that he had moved on.

My dad has pnemonia.
Mother in law to be has breast cancer.
My Love is gone to work for approximately two months.

This is the shit my brain does.
My depression is bad lately.
I can't stop crying.
I can't sleep.

I put on a real good show and it's exhausting.

I feel like I always try to be Sweden, neutral. 
I feel like I always try to be strong, to hold it together.
I feel like
I feel like it's getting so hard.

We want a house.
I'm so terrified to have a house.
It'll just be me, and our dog we hope to have, when he's gone to work.
I'm so scared for that.

Just breathe.

Maybe I'll sleep tonight.
I feel like I've exhausted myself from crying.

I came home from work, had a decent day but missed my Dude and then just all this shit was going on and decided to have a glass of wine, which in the end made The Feelings, worse.

Everyone I work with has their own shit going on, I get that. Trust me I get it.  I feel like I try to  sympathize/empathize...Pisces nature.
And then when it's your own shit, you take on everyone's issues as well and it just hits you.
We've had 3 family friend deaths, close family friends.
And then all the recent stuff above and then some other medical issues.
A retirement at work was really hard on me.
My two people I rely on to keep me sane were gone at the same time.
And just being alone lately fucking sucks.
I can't breathe.

I feel like I need to catch my breath from crying.

I need to fucking sleep tonight.
I've been having sleep issues since the beginning of September, worse the last 2 weeks though.


I'm just so exhausted with everything but can't sleep.
Ironic hey?

Please link something to cheer me up in the comments.

I'm So Weird

I am so over this mental health shit.

My anxiety has been (forced to be) better.
My depression is okay.
I just hate being without my dude.
And being alone makes all this stupid shit worse.

He and my mom are two of my best friends, but he seriously keeps me sane.
And sometimes I just feel lost without him.

I can seriously sit at home or lay in bed and just be there and time will pass and I won't have a fucking clue, it's like I'm waiting for him to walk in.
I'm always scared that one day I will actually lose him, because I will have also lost myself and that terrifies me.  It's one of the thoughts that keeps me awake at night.

Since the day I met him I've always (to myself) compared him to my best friend growing up (kindergarten until grade 11), it was always the same feeling...like I felt like myself and could be myself around him and we could just goof, but obviously it's more with him than it was my best friend when I was a kid.

Don't you hate but love when the songs on your playlist play with how you're feeling?
I didn't even realize I was crying.
I just miss him.

I was watching 'The Conjuring 2' ten minutes ago, like what? how did I get to here?

I'm so weird and such an introvert.
When he's gone I hate being lonely but I do like to be alone.
Like I turned down a walk with a friend today and practically rushed my mom out the door just to be alone.
I'm so weird.

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I Love Autumn

This is not new news.
It's the first day of October, it's foggy and rainy outside, the leaves are falling onto my driveway.

But I'm sad.

My Love is away working and I have no one to share the joy with.
Normally we would be out for walks, going to the corn maze, picking pumpkins, browsing the farmer's market etc.
It's not the same alone, it's not even the same with someone in place of him.
It sucks.

It's my favorite time of year and it's his busy time at work.
I hate to whine because I know a lot of people have to do this, it just doesn't get easier.

So to celebrate the first day of October I have on this cozy sweatshirt, I'm going to go buy candles and have coffee with my Mom, then tidy my house and make it cozy.  Then I'll play some video games, read a book and eventually settle down with a glass of red wine, a bowl of chili and watch "The Resident".

Fuck.
I miss my dude.

I'm browsing all the cozy Autumn pictures on Tumblr, here's the link to mine.
My tumblr has changed from health and fitness to whatever to Autumn.

Today might be a good day to watch "You've Got Mail".

Oh and go listen to my new favorite song, "Two Punks In Love" by Bulow.

Happy October! Enjoy!

Skin Check In

My skin is breaking out bad and I don't know why.
Usually it's because it's "that time of the month" but not this time.
And its only on the right side of my chin and mouth area and they're painful pimples.

Okay, maybe I have an inkling it's the cheese and dairy I've had, because I can break out from dairy but it's never been this bad or long.
I've had pizza quite a lot. . .

I've been trying to treat these pimples, so if what I use works I will let you know.
Also, I tried the Pixi Glow Peel Pads (again) and they dried my skin out for over a week.  I have never had sand paper skin the way I did this past week.  The first time I used the pads I didn't even notice a difference. This last time was much different.
The Glow Tonic works well for me, but these pads are a no go.
I would recommend the First Aid Beauty facial radiance pads over these, but that's just me.
My skin is typically on the drier side.

Lately for acids I've been using the lactic, glycolic, salicylic and hyaluronic acids from The Ordinary.
They work best for my, apparently, sensitive skin.

Then I like to also use the Caudalie Instant Detox Mask, I think it's a miracle worker. I haven't bought it in almost a year and just repurchased it because I realized I missed it and it was one of the products that really helped my skin.

Because I use those acids I try to keep my moisturizer pretty basic and use the Eucerin facial moisturizer as it's hydrating and just simple.

I also LOVE the Glow Recipe watermelon sleeping mask, it is amazing, you just need to try it to understand.

I have no updates on eye cream, because I miss my beloved Shiseido eye cream but can't justify the price until there is a sale.
For now the Olay ultimate eye cream is working, but it's nothing compared to the above.
If you have any suggestions on an affordable eye cream it would be greatly appreciated.

I'm curious what you're using in your skin care routine (I love skin care) or if you have any tips for break outs. Thanks!

I Hate Being Lonely

I like being alone but I hate being lonely.

I feel like this sums me up very well.

When I feel lonely, my world goes south.
Does that make sense?

This is worse on my days off.
My Love is away working right now, it's almost been two weeks and it never gets easier.

He mostly works at this time of year (my favorite time-Autumn). Last year he was gone for three weeks then home for four days and then gone another month.
Last year was hard.

I'm very grateful he got this job, as he loves it and he is respected more than some of his other jobs he has.  Overall, we're both happy.
It's these lonely moments that get me.
I know it must be hard for him as he's away from everything and everyone, his home.
But as my mental health has always been an issue, I find it especially hard.


Yesterday was a big feat for me, I was quite happy with myself.
I went out shopping, like fun shopping, by myself.
Since you don't know me, just to let you know this is big deal for me.
It's great if I do groceries by myself, I think I over came that last year though, but I still like to call my Mom to go with me on particularly anxious days.
I have not done fun shopping by myself in years.  I used to take the bus all the time in my early twenties, I don't know what happened.
I used to even go see movies by myself and some of those movies are my favorites because I was by myself when I saw them!

Anyways, I didn't come home for two and a half hours.
I hit up HomeSense first, seeing as it was the first day of Autumn, then Winners. . .then I decided not to push my luck and left the mall to get some groceries at Wal-Mart (On a freaking Saturday! Never again. It was so busy!!)
After that I checked out London Drugs for some cosmetic bits and then headed to my parent's house to check in with my brother.
I mean, it's not a crazy day, but it's a lot for me. And I didn't have one panic attack!

Tomorrow I might even try my luck at a movie.
Scratch that, there's no early matinees.
I really want to see 'Life Itself', it looks like a me movie.
But tomorrow 'The Resident' season 2 premieres, so I kinda wanna watch that instead.

Anyone else watching 'Maniac' on Netflix?
It's interesting, I found the first episode very slow.  I liked the second and third episode a lot.
I think I'm on the fourth...
I'm also watching 'Hilda' which is pretty relaxing and easy to watch.


By now I'm sure you've realized my best friend is Netflix.


[I just realized I need to update my 'about me' section, as I am no longer a "twenty year old something blogger".]

What Do You Do On A Friday Night?

But honestly.

I rarely get to treat a Friday night like a 'Friday Night', but tonight I do.


So, this Friday night I got home, looked at my laundry, decided no, and poured a glass of wine.
I then proceeded to get into my comfy uniform (leggings, a t-shirt, this sweater, and some kind of wool/worker man sock [can't think of what they're actually called])

I then lit every candle in my living room and turned on my fairy lights.
Then it was really a toss between checking out the new show 'Maniac' on Netflix or watching youtube,
I chose Spotify for about half an hour and then let my curiosity get the best of me and watched one episode of 'Maniac'.
I am intrigued.

Then I watched two episodes of "Summer Camp Island", all of which I've already seen, but I love that show.

By this time I think I was two glasses of wine in and had decided to make a quesadilla .
Not much time had passed after the quesadilla that I decided to make chocolate chip cookies.
I also talked to My Love, who is working away at the moment (it's that time of year, hence the wine),

And now here we are, three glasses of wine and two cookies later.

It's not even nine thirty yet.
Do I go to bed?
Do I watch more 'Maniac'?
Read a book?
Or browse the interwebs?


What do you do on a Friday night?

The Emmy's

I have not watched The Emmy's in a long time, but seeing as there are some shows I've been into I thought I would.
The big one for me is The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel.
I am a Gilmore Girl lover, therefore an Amy Sherman-Palladino lover.

So I am so fucking stoked that they have so far won four emmy's.   Four!
Like I turned it on a little late but every winner was for the show!

And good God, this woman is gorgeous.

And then freakin' Alex Borstein. I really enjoyed her speech, it was short and sweet and made me cry as most speeches do from actors I like.

I feel like I've been waiting forever for this show to start season 2!

Fuck, I love award shows.
Usually I'm more a Golden Globes/Oscars kind of gal, but like I said, I've been into some more tv shows as of late.

I always dreamed I would be on one of these shows one day.
I used to act and I promised myself I would take my youngest brother to the Oscars one day, if I made it, as he and I always shared acting in common.
Who knows, maybe I'll start acting classes again in the new year.

Lots of previews are on the tv right now, anyone else watch The Resident?
Love that show. . .because of Matt Czuchry.


Aw Jeff Daniels, I liked his speech.
It was funny but I still cried, of course.
I'm scared that I'll be old when I follow my dream.

This feels good, this feels like my old Oscar blogs.
Mostly I was commenting on the fashion, but nonetheless it still feels good.

Man, Betty White looks so great for 96 years old.

Aw Ryan Murphy, I've never heard him speak before and his speech made me cry.

. . . .

Claire Foy looks gorgeous, I don't think I've ever seen her in anything.
Anyone else think her and Sarah Paulson look alike?
I think it's just certain features, but seeing them apart is just whoa..I'm sure if they were side by side it'd be different.

What shows are you guys stoked for?
American Horror Story already started and I'm into it.
I'm excited for The Resident (as I said above), This is Us, South Park, Tosh.0, Single Parents and The Cool Kids.

I just finished re-watching Gossip Girl and now I'm onto Stranger Things...again.

I think if I was ever attending an award show I would be a blubbering mess, could you imagine if I had to give a speech? Fuck that, it would just be blubber blubber I love you handsome, blubber blubber I love you parents, blubber some more.

Omg, of course Sarah Paulson would  announce that Claire Foy wins. Ha!
I'm very drawn to her, I need to watch things she's in.


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15 minutes left.
The last 45mins to an hour have not been exciting.
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YES!!!!
The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel won best comedy series!
I couldn't be happier for them.

Confessions Of A Boring Girl 2.0

I think. . .
I think I'm going to reinstate my old blog.

So, apparently I deleted it off this account and can no longer go back in and access the whole myroomisred link.  Which is probably good because I no longer live in that red room and it is also no longer red!

Yeah, I'm going to do it.
I miss that girl.
I've turned into a more anxious girl in the last few years, yet my life has gotten better.
Let's channel this Boring Girl, because she is still boring...probably more so now.

So I know a lot of the ones I kept in contact with are long gone now, like, Lauren, Chelsea(x2), Bee, & Cindy.
Those are the ones I remember the best, sorry if I've forgotten others, but any contact is appreciated (I live a boring life).

I apologize for the language but, getting older fucking sucks.

I'm thirty now.
What the hell?
I was twenty four when I had my blog and had friends on here.
Back then life seemed so exciting.
What I remember most is that it was 2009, my Grandpa had just passed away (fucking pancreatic cancer) and I was finally treated for my thyroid and it was like all of a sudden after his funeral it all clicked into place.
All of a sudden I had two jobs, one at a bookstore (that only stuck for four months) and one at a grocery store as their day time maintenance(which stuck for four years, one two year relationship, one breakup, and another relationship which has turned into a three year engagement).

Fuck. Really?  Fuck has been a favorite word of mine this year.  But like seriously, has that all happened? You guys don't even know the half of it yet!

So let's ignore the bookstore job, because nothing really happened there except the fact that I didn't know a cute guy was flirting with me (yes, I had to be told a guy was flirting with me)

Okay so last time I posted on Confessions Of A Boring Girl was quite ominous. 

I'm even playing the video I posted right now and that song just takes me back every time.
I remember that morning perfectly (and I totally just realized something else now too but I'll get to it..remind me) So I posted that on July 17th 2012
But everything had happened quite a bit before, and that quote I posted it just so perfect and I feel like that movie is just it for my life.

Tom: "What happened? Why - why didn't they work out?"

Summer: "What always happens. Life."

Fuck.


This is the longest post I've done ever on this blog.
Long story short, I was dating a guy and we were not in a good place, we went out for a friend's birthday and I ended up running into a guy we both used to work with and that I kind of always flirted with.  This guy and I ended up dancing (I hate calling him this guy) and my current boyfriend didn't like it, but we were honestly just goofing, like it wasn't seductive dancing.
Then at one point this song I really liked came on and it had come on earlier and my boyfriend didn't want to dance to it, but when it came on again this guy did and I just took it as this sign.
-Back story real quick.  This guy and my current boyfriend and basically everyone else I was with worked at the same store all together one point in time. We always kind of flirted and even got in trouble for it.-
So anyways, we danced to this song and he went for the kiss, I told him I couldn't and he backed off and understood.
I told him I was sorry and that I liked him but I just couldn't do that to somebody.
Funny thing, we both aren't facebook fans and I asked him if he had facebok, he did.

The walk home was long, my ex and I bickered back and forth, as yes I get that I danced with this other guy but it wasn't close and nothing happened, but he didn't get that.  I mean, I totally knew was I was doing, I wasn't that intoxicated and I definitely had a crush on this other guy at some point and had thought about him after he left the store.

[Omg, get on with it woman.]

My ex slept at my house, I can clearly remember "him" facing the wall and me facing the other way.  I was just too nice to make "him" walk home that late.

[I'm that girl who everyone thinks of as a friend, if you couldn't figure that out already]

So the next morning, I like to refer to it as the 'Morning After', I went to meet my Mom for coffee at Blenz, our usual Sunday meet up (remember this), where I spilled everything to her.
After that I went and had a nice long walk at the beach, thinking about everything, while listening to this song:


Needless to say, within days we were broken up.
I remember on my brother's birthday that everyone had their significant others there except me, so that was at least 5 days after.  That night I remember laying in my parent's drive way on the phone with The Ex crying, wondering if we had done the right thing and wondering what I would do without "him" because he had been my best friend for almost 3 years.

That was a rough night.

But within days this other guy contacted me on the hated Facebook.
I hate Facebook but at the same time I thank so much for it, I don't know where I would be right now without it to be honest.
So he contacted me, gave me his cell number on there and six years later here we are engaged.

You guys have no idea how much I thank my friend for having her birthday that night and going to that bar.
I really used to question that whole fate shit and that night made me really believe in that.
You have no idea.

This man, my love, I always would write in old blogs and journal entries how he used to make me feel like I was hanging out with my best friend I had growing up and, you guys, it's still like that.

He makes me laugh everyday, he makes it hard to be mad at him, and he just is my favorite person ever.
Fuck, I love him so much.

So, that's life, basically, up to date.

Let's get back into this Confessions Of A Boring Girl groove shall we?



Oh and The Ex?
They ended up deciding they were meant to be female.




[Editing me]
You may also be wondering why I was making you remember about that morning after and that coffee at Blenz with my Mom.
Well, just about every Sunday my fiancee and I meet my Mom for coffee at that same Blenz.
Ironic?







[2nd editing me]
Tom was right.
I've been watching that scene over and over and it just so fits what happened in my life.
You only know a small part of it, and a large part of it was I didn't want to belong to someone but I always felt this other guy was "it" and he is. 
And just, how can some scene in a movie fit so perfectly in your life?
[P.S. I've been bawling for the past, oh 20-30 mins, about this.]


















 

Burn Out

Let's talk about job burn-out.
I just had last week off, which was good timing because I was really starting to feel the effects of burnout.
I'm back this week and the week is good, but I don't feel like I've had a week off.
The unfortunate thing is that everyone at work feels this way.

I was going to come on here and suggest some things to avoid burn out, but guess what? I have no tips.
No one wants my advice because it comes in a wine glass.
That's not really a solution, is it?

I know that exercising is a good one, kind of.
I mean you'll be more tired but still feel from working out.
But guess what? I don't have the energy to do that plus I've got this stupid anxiety and panic disorder that weighs me down.
Plus I'm an introvert that deals with the (very demanding and exhausting) public all day, so I am drained after my day.

It's weird, I'm so introverted that a day with people has me exhausted so bad that I just need to cry, but I could do a hike and having a even busier day cleaning or doing manual labor and be totally fine.
Actually at my last job I had a physically demanding janitor job and I was less exhausted after a full day of that working 6 days a week than I am at my current job.

Okay, I'm done bitching.
Someone just give me advice on avoiding all this exhaustion, please?

Autumn is Almost Here!

It's finally September!!
If only you could see me now, I am in my element.
I've had the past week off and I've been cooking, lots, drinking wine (of course) while I cook, had the Autumn playlist on, lit the candles, decorated the house etc.
You know, all things Autumn.

I love this cozy time.
I am used to the rain where I live, but there is something about a sunny Fall day that just *sigh*, it gets me.

It's raining out right now, I have wonton soup simmering, and a glass of wine by my side.  It's been an almost perfect day.
My Love is still at work, but will be home soon.  I love being a housewife when I'm not working, is that weird?

I finished reading one of my favorite Fall reads again, "Prettygirl13" by Liz Coley.  I don't want to say what it's about because it'll give way too much away but I love it and I reread it every year at least once.

It's hard to believe Canadian Thanksgiving is only a month away now!  Thanksgiving rivals Christmas for me.  I love Christmas, but sometimes it gets a little stressful, where Thanksgiving is just cook and eat.  I love to eat.

Have you guys been watching any Autumn movies?
Not gonna lie, I start watching Autumn themed movies in August.
I've watched "Hocus Pocus" a few times, it's one of my favorite movies in general though.  My birthday is in March and at my seventh birthday my parents put it on to calm me down, as I was overwhelmed, and to distract the other kids.
I finally watched "Autumn in New York" and "The Dead Poet's Society", I really enjoyed them both and will add them to the Fall rotation.
Other Autumn movies I've watched, in list form because that is my way:
-"You've Got Mail"
-"Practical Magic"
-"Coraline"
-"October Kiss" (twice, I'm addicted)
-"Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets"
and then I of course have been into "Gossip Girl" like every Fall and then I just finished "Summer Camp Island"...which not very Autumnal but still put me in the mood.
Last night I went and saw "The Nun", I really liked it but my mom found it boring...so you'll have to figure that one out on your own. 


Leave me some Autumn movies/tv shows to watch down below and I will for sure check them out.

What I've Been Up To- Summer 2018

You guys,
I've been enjoying Summer so much this year.
I was unsure if I would enjoy it, seeing as I'm off work later this year than last.
I'm making the best of it.
To start off the Summer right I took an extra long weekend for Victoria Day (which I never do) and we went camping!

It made me want to do a lot more camping this year (which we haven't yet, but will) and I ended up investing in a double sleeping bag.

After that trip my love was gone for about a month, luckily our weather wasn't that great for the month of June so we weren't missing out.
Then July I had holidays and the weather was hot.
We took day trips here and there and did a big clean where we got rid of a lot of things we're not using.

It's fun exploring where you live.
I've lived in the same town for 30 years and had never been to Port Renfrew, so we finally went there.  Unfortunately the trip was cut short due to truck issues, but it was neat to see none the less.

Tonight I made shrimp cakes and they were freaking delicious! Both the boy and I decided it was a keeper recipe.
Since my last post we've lost three family friends, so that's been rough and one hit me harder than expected, but at least they're all no longer in pain and that's what I keep telling myself.

I have a few long weekends coming up and some holidays on September 1st.
I really want to start writing and blogging again, I've missed it more than I thought I would.

Anyone else scoping out Autumn decorations and candles?
Too early?

Anyways, I feel like I've been really trying to love life lately.
I'll have a post coming soon about the supplements I've been using and what's been saving me from my anxiety.

Face Mask Review (Part One)

I'm sure the beauty community has heard about Glow Recipe by now, I think I'm late to the game.  They're famous for their Watermelon Glow Sleeping Mask (which I can not go without) and now their Watermelon Glow Pink Juice Moisturizer as well.

I place an order almost two months ago to try out a few sheet and rubber masks, also this life changing watermelon sleeping mask.

Well, I fell in love.

In the past, believing my skin to be oily, I've used mostly clay masks so this whole hydrating mask thing is new to me.

So this most recent purchase I bought one rubber mask, the watermelon mask and so many sheet masks.

I have yet to make it through all these masks but I figured I would do reviews along the way.  The best way for me to keep track of what they do is to write on the packaging as a reminder, so here we go!

Glow Recipe

Watermelon Glow Sleeping Mask

I use this mask after I cleanse my face in the evening and before I put anything else on my face.

It can tend to settle a bit, so just give it a quick stir until it becomes a jelly again.  I use about a dime size amount for my entire face and I have been using this just about every night unless I use another treatment or face mask that evening.

The next morning my skin always looks more clear and glow-y.

Blossom Jeju

White Camellia Soombi 2-Step Pure Brightening Petal Mask

(shown on the left in white packaging)

I really enjoyed this mask!  So at the bottom there is a little packet (mine is ripped off because I've used it) that contains Jeju Camellia oil and you apply that to your face first then part two the sheet mask.  I did find it pretty brightening, almost a whitening effect and the number on thing? I didn't break out.

Polatam

Pure Cream Mask Firming Radiance

I'm so frustrated about this mask because I do like it but my skin has some issues with it.

First off, it's a cream sheet mask, so it is quite thick which I really liked.  It felt so hydrating and when I took it off I could feel a slight firming effect.

The next morning I woke up with three new zits in different areas of my face, not happy.

I have a second one of these masks, so I will try it again and will let you know in my part two review if the same thing happened.

Make P:rem

Firming Layering Double Mask

I've tried this mask before, and I've ordered it again which is why this one is unopened.  I've only tried a few things but I am so in love with this brand (try the micro tension cream!).  

One of my favorite things about this mask is that it has ear loops to hold it on to your face and it just fits perfectly.  Plus this one really makes you look like a serial killer, I actually scared my boyfriend while wearing this one.  

I could really feel the firming effects around my eyes and mouth after I removed this and maybe it's a placebo effect but it looks like my mouth wrinkle is less noticeable after this mask.

Whamisa

Organic Fruits & Tomato Fermented Hydrogel Sheet Mask

This mask was weird.

Did I like it? Yes

It's a gel like it states, but for some reason I was not expecting that, so you have to be quite careful applying it as I ended up tearing with my nails a few times.

The smell was okay, not the best though.

You're supposed to wear it for twenty minutes, but I found it so hard as it was sliding all over my face.  But I did find it very hydrating and my skin looked, clarified? I think that's the word I want.

Just a heads up that the packaging looks like it has changed from what I have pictured

Polatam

Water Gel Extra Force Moisturizing Sheet Mask

 Another mask from Polatam, so I was a bit nervous after breaking out from the firming one by them.

I love this mask. 

I had no breakouts, it was insanely moisturizing and I love the smell!!  I don't know what the smell actually is but it contains Oak tree sap so I imagine it's that but it reminds of my using my Mom's aloe plant when I was a kid.

I am so happy I purchased two of these.

Wish Formula

Squish-and-Bubble Mesh Mask

This was so cool.

This is actually a cleanser, it comes with a sponge already soaked in solution containing Vitamin C and AHAs.

You squish it and out comes the cleanser all nice and bubbly.

I found it did a great job at cleansing and exfoliating, but I would definitely apply a moisturizer right after so you don't dry out your skin.

On the website it says you can use this up to three times per week, but I was unsure if it was the same sponge or if you'd have to buy a bunch of them.  They do make one for the body too which I really want to try!

I still have seven new masks to try out before I post another review and I'll also update you on any duplicates I have if there is a different reaction.

Have you tried anything from Glow Recipe? 

Let me know in the comments!

[I ended up playing with the font after I published this and now it's super tiny. I am in the process of fixing it.]